Infinite Words

If I have to describe myself, I think the words OLD  SOUL fit me the most. Even though I like to put on a tough look, I actually feel left out almost as often. I also often feel misunderstood and find myself in a tough spot to explain myself, but explaining myself is so hard! So I give up and then feel left out again. Maybe because of that, I often feel miserable and lonely. I want a company of someone who can feel me completely, so bad! That's how desperate I am. Ask people around me what kind of person I am! I am sure they will say that I am cheerful and nice to be around with, I could say I am a quite good company because I have high level of empathy. Maybe that's why I'm quite popular among my students (pure narcissism). That's what other people are saying and I actually want to believe it. But, I can't help but wonder whether what they say was true or not. I also often find myself insincere towards others, so when people say nice things to me, I also wonder